All About Me

Its been a long time since I touched down in blog land. But alots been going on with me working, searching for a new employment, exercising,decorating my apt, kicking it with my friends(old and new), and going back and forth through depression. Now that I am back I will do my best to try and do one blog a week. Every weekend for the last month or so I have been kicking it with Cash, Atlanta, and Blknazn. We have been going to eat and then clubbing it up. People are starting to act brand new again like they have never seen a group of gay boys together. For instance a couple weeks ago it was about 5 of us big boys at Red Lobster.. People were looking at us and shit. So finally I was like WTF are you looking at? Then at Bin 36 on Saturday the server kept asking us what were we there for? Why did it matter? So finally I told him please stop digging. I have to say that Spin has now become my hang out spot and finding a spot dont even mean nothing to me anymore. But today my heart is heavy and I got some things to discuss with the blog world and I hope I get some positive feedback. Well me and my guy have been having a few troubles and its getting out of hand. Is it possible to love someone and not be in love? Yes I know it possible. Can 2 people who are totally different make it? Can sex ruin a relationship? My situation is that I want it and he doesnt feel like it all the time.. I want the blog world to tell me what can a person do to make a relationship work? See the problem is now I love him but we are loosing our connection for many different reasons. He says I want him to be the perfect man.. but I didnt know that those existed. I have a high sex drive and I LOVE to have sex and we dont do it enough for me. I love this man so much that Im willing to compromise myself slightly to make it work and still its not good enough for him. I am not trying to string him along! I have no problem being alone. Maybe my problem is that I require to much attention and he aint giving it to me. Maybe I am a perfectionist. Maybe Im bored! Maybe he is not doing it for me anymore. I dont know what it could be but i am not in the business for hurting people or for people being able to hurt me. But in all relationships everyone have to conform and compromise else relationships wont work. But I would like some feedback.