Tommorow is not Promised to any of us

Listening To: Bless your Holy Name

Apostle Donald Alfred

This has been a trying a week one I would say to test my faith and once again make me realize who GOD IS in my life. For starters the heat has been unbearable and almost hard to deal with. The temperatures have reached into the mid hundreds... and with the heat indexes it has reached as high 119. Damn that’s to much. I’m a big boy for one so that really didn’t work for me which caused me to sweat even more. Everyday this week has presented me with something as a test and a trial and I think I have passed them but not with flying colors. Honda is an expensive company. My brake pads went on my car and they wanted $539.33 to repair them. WTF I thought? My pads were so completely gone that they didn’t even want me to take the car from the service port. Can you believe it they made me sign a waiver stating that the car was unsafe to drive and that if anything happened to it they would not be liable. Ok.. I tipped it to my mom's house so her husband could fix it and now imp stuck driving my old car that my brother tore up. LOL. Its not funny but I got bungee cords holding up the bumper and front end assembly. I felt like I was knocked off my high horse having to drive it like that. None the less its mine and it beats the bus in this sweltering heat. I knew this was going to be one of those days when I came out the house and couldn’t get the passenger door open because of the accident and then got to work and realized that I left my lunch at home. Still then I didn’t notice that something was wrong. It wasn’t until 8:45am and my boss came into my office crying that I noticed that something was wrong. Then i heard the bad news.. 1 of our best clients had died last night from some type of myocardial infraction but I think he had a heat stroke which he probably did. Its been said around the office day. I have been doing grief counseling all day and having 200 clients and about 10 staff there was no way we could accommodate all these individuals so we had to call one of other agencies to come in and help us. I wanted to cry myself but I remained strong. This really makes me think about how we should appreciate people while they are here on this earth. I used to be one of those people who would shut people out but if something would have happened to one of them while I was being an asshole and not talking to them I would have cried and been upset. As people we can be mean as hell sometimes and can say some mean things that we really don’t mean. I remember back in the winter I was going through something’s. I admit I kind of have Intermittent Explosive Disorder and the smallest thing can tick me off. Well I said some bad things to him because he made me mad and instead of him leaving me alone how I usually am when I’m mad, he kept calling and texting me which caused me to act kind of ugly. We went for 8 months without any real conversation. Our mouths can get us in a lot of trouble. Mine does! I never realized it until I lost my best friend. He didn’t want to be my friend anymore and I kind of deserved it. It took just about 8 months for us to be cool again. We are getting better! So its better to keep contact with someone and let the person know that you care about them and love them because tomorrow is not promised to anyone. I know someone else that does this whenever something is going wrong in they're life. SHUTTING the world out ain’t gone make it better and its always better to have the ones who love you around.