Changes in my life

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Today I want to talk about the changes in my life some good and some not so good. First I am so unhappy with the changes I have made in the last 60 days. Damn I was doing so good losing weight and had lost alot but now im back to being a fat ass. I had lost like 40lbs and got down to a 38 waist. Now I have gained about 20 of the 40 back and im back into a 40-42.. I got my ass back but that aint important I would rather be slim. Its all because im in love with a chocolate man that so much can be done with. I really love when he comes out the oven and is the right golden color. Other is the late night food that my guy likes to eat. I mean we usually get home about 10pm or later and then he wants to eat. I say no and then he persists that you eat with him.. so then im up eating and shit. Then other changes I am happy with: They include me being comfortable being me.. accepting who I truly am. I never realized how horrible I used to act until I lost this one guy whom I liked alot and of course when people reflect on the past. I remember I went to springfield one weekend and we were on our way out and I made a comment about us being gay in public and after he was done fucking with me. He doesnt even want to be my friend just because of that. I guess I was one of those "grown men around who lick they're dicks sucked but then shady in public(Springfield)." I was horrible and there is no getting around it. I remember when me and Winthrop would fight because I would be bi one moment and the next straight and holier than most. Boy was I a trip. Im comfortable as hell now.. to the point where I even show affection to my guy in public.. I dont act like that anymore... Hell im 25 yrs old now.. I would hope that I improved since March of 2005 and especially the years before. Im comfortable being me now..Im sitting here thinking about the old blog I wrote about in my other blog. Feel free to read it im attaching a link.