Being Comfortable being me and U accepting me

Over the couple of days I have not been up to much. Basically I just been relaxing, listening to Dekalb pt2 act a fool about our non existent relationship/friendship. I have been talking to a new person we'll call SIU. Siu is cool, 23, a college grad, in school, and a virgin. WOW!! This will be the first time i've ever encountered a virgin but it will give me a chance a to teach him some of the things that i've been taught over the years. Please Add Dekalb pt2 to your prayers he lost his grandfather on yesterday. So much death is around me. EIU lost his aunt on Monday, and Naperville who lost his dad on Friday, he will be cremated sometime today! Last night was crazy at my house because the pipes froze in the bath tub or stopped working. Either way I had to take a ghetto shower and pour water over myself. But I got to keep the goodies fresh and clean. When I get home tonight and they are still not working then I will be spending the night at Atlantas house again for the second time this week. I just realized that today made 2 months since I had intercourse. WOW!! Hey I prayed for control over my flesh and thats what I got. Right now Im in the this time management seminar. Writing blog after blog for later post. But the LORD knows I need to be in someones time management class. I am always forgetting someone, something, overbooking, and a whole bunch of other mis managed time.
Over the last few days I realized that their are some people on this earth who have some serious problems with me for no reason at all or whatever their reasoning is. But instead of coming with their issues that would rather walk around with their attitudes. I am comfortable being me and if anyone doesnt like it then they can hit the bricks. I am an outgoing person who likes to have fun. Also, I am a very outspoken and I say whats on my mind not caring if your hurt or not. Basically I dont sugar coat nothing for you and I tell you how it is. Recently, I just stopped saying things to people to cut down on the confusion. I know me and I know what I do. I dont need anyone telling me I do anything and just cause I said I dont do something that doesnt mean I've never tried it, simply it means its not something that I do on an everyday basis. Im tired of accomodating/compromising for people to change myself; so from now on Im going to be me. HATE ME OR LOVE ME is what I say!! I continue to say it over and over again that no one is perfect, NO ONE! In order to know the true me... I'm a complex person, not a little complex, very very complex. Im an average guy! Everything about me is average... At times I am hard to get along with, but thats what sets me aside from everyone. But we all cant be the same thats what makes us all different. It is my belief that if you care enough about a person, then then problems that you have with that person will be talked over and worked out. Right now at the present time I have NO BEST FRIENDS... because....... I got a couple friends I hang out with, associates I talk too, and a few people in which I deal with on a day to day basis but they hold no real position in my life. Im also single right now, for many reasons: trying to make others happy, running people away, not being happy with certain people, and simply not being happy with myself. Then I got people in my life who are just mean, they dont want me, but dont want to see me happy with anyone else. So they play with my emotions to keep you from moving on. There are so many of these people in my life that im tired of. And if they all could be true to me and themselves we could all have a better relationship or maybe no dealings at all with one. Separated with NO HARD FEELINGS. Im done venting Now!