Why have I been so blind?

I forgot to ask that Everyone Pray for my Best Friend EIU, he lost his Aunt on yesterday and of course Naperville with the loss of his father. LETS KEEP THEM BOTH LIFTED UP IN PRAYER!!! Yesterday was one of those days. It seemed like everything I touched, thought about, or wished could happen all seemed to fail on yesterday. I almost got depressed but I immediately start praying for GOD's covering and instantly I felt better so I took everything that was bothering me and put it in his hands and I wont worry about it. Satan used diffetrent strategies to keep me blinded about many things concerning me. It took many years for me to realize my self worth. That im actually someone! Also to realize that I am attractive and im a good man. At a very young age I got somethings going fotr myself. I dont have to settle for less and shouldnt have to lower my standards to find happiness. But I really must be blind because on yesterday I found somethings out yesterday that blew me through a loop. This guy named Crandon told me he has always found me attractive and wanted to get with me. He wants to show me "THE TRUTH" whatever that is. I then asked him why he never hollered or at least asked one of his friends to hook me up. His reasoning is that I was with one of his friends when we used to date a while back and we are still good friends. Also, that his other friend actually liked me too. WOW, what a triangle. His friend as I call him Sauk Village used to talk about me to him,etc. Why was I so blind to see it? Now this is a person I actually liked and wanted to get something started with. He is 24 and has a lot going for his self like me. Thick like I em. I dont know why I was so blind to see it and if he would have ever gave me the inkling that he was remotely interested in me I would have immediately started dating him. Well in my pursuit to find me a lover. what exactly am I looking for... Ill save that for a post later this evening I shall be staying home. Well last night I went up North to Atlanta's house and we went to get dinner. While out Dekalb Part2 calls me. Now he says I am confused... He is the confused one.. He says not to call him anymore but he calls me. What kind of game does he protray me to be. I spent the night at Atlantas house. Im still celibate... Aint had none since Oct 8th and still going strong. See thats whassup being able to lay in bed with someone and you guys not touch. I woke up and took me a nice little shower and got ready for work while he was showering and getting ready for work too. We left out together, pounded our Fists and went our separate ways. Thats all I am looking for is someone to care for me with my clothes on. Is that to much to ask for? Now im at work bored as hell.