Feelings

Listening to: GOD BLOCKED IT!

Dang its been about 3 weeks since I been in the blog expressing my thoughts. During these 3 weeks so much has went on. For the most part I would say GOD has been giving me FAVOUR and so many things have been going on where I was blessed on every hand. My little brother wrecked my car and now the person he had the accident with is claiming that he hit him. But my fucking car is tore up from the side. So now Im fighting back with Statefarm because I aint paying for shit. I went to Indianapolis this past weekend to visit my family and then can you believe that it was a sniper on the road shooting at people for no reason. I was rolling on the way back sometimes up to 100mph hey its harder to hit a moving target. Then the perfect relationship I thought I had seems to be on the rocks! Well it seems to me that I come second best to everything when its concerning him. He does not pay attention to me anymore and it seems that if i want attention I have to start a fight or say something off the wall. Who ever thought that Food, a TV, an Ipod,and the computer could take priority over your guy. Im at the point where now im like lets just be friends but he doesnt want that. This would come after yesterday being our one year anniversary of meeting one another. In alot of ways I see the gemini and the Pschology major coming out. I did things just to see if he even paid attention to me. NOPE, i was just as stationary/ not important as my Papa San chair he likes to sit in. All he said to me was whats wrong with you and can you fix me some rice. So I continued on the net looking at emails and cropping pictures. I have not said much to him lately and was hoping that maybe he would say I was being mean and want to go home but he didnt. Last night we slept in the same bed and didnt touch. Damn, if I cant have sex then can I get some kind of attention from you. On the way to work this morning he was asking me once again what was wrong with me. Once again I said nothing why do you say so? "Cause you have not talked in the last couple of days. I didnt say nothing but then I decided to get it off my chest. I' m tired of being second best to everything in the world. Which lead to a short discussion and a phone call when I got to work. A lot has to be discussed and I will keep ya updated. Is Mr. Maurice back on the market... Stay Tuned....