The Reading of a LIFETIME

Yesterday so many things happened. One I was talking to someone I used to talk too. It was actually a great conversation and I enjoyed it. He invited me over to his place but I was unable to attend due to prior engagements. So I arrived at the Dentist office early for my appointment. I got called in and went in the back. There was the BIG ASS needle I was oh lord. Well she normally uses some cream on my gums before she sticks me. Well she used it and it still didnt work.. DAMNIT.. She stuck that BIG ASS needle in my gums and it hurt like hell.. All the while she is telling me to relax.. I uttered a groan and another groan and uttered the words how the hell can I relax with a BIG ASS needle in my jaw and it hurts. So then she starts drilling and LORD did it hurt. I was stop now. So she stopped and waiting and went back to it. IT hurt! When she was finished she said you never acted like this before... See you came here with a "preconcieved thought." LOL.. well I dont want to be another Diamond Brownridge(RIP) and possibly thats why I was tense. I went to the Car dealer to get my headlight replaced(yes again) and then they started trying to sell me another car. Ok.. I hate being bored and I hate waiting.. So I started driving
the 07's and so I decided to lease one since I am not to like keeping cars long. While I was waiting I began to think about the "EX" and us rekindling. I thought about what it was like to try and date him 11 months ago. Then I Thought about the comment /Scripture he left on my blog and decided that it was best if we didnt rekindle any kind of relationship but more so work on a friendship. "If he didnt like you then he is not going to like you now" is what kept playing in my head. Back then he didnt like my hair(me), didnt like the way I thought(me), thought I was a hoe, might I add Im not(me). So it seemed that everything about me disgusted him so now why the change of heart. He is a person that I really like and grew to care for.. only to not be accepted and have my heart handed to me in a basket after it was stepped on and abused. After thinking all this.. I told them to keep the truck and if I want it, Ill come back tand get it tommorow(which is today). So today, is NATIONAL COMING OUT DAY! To bad I aint got no one to come out too and no one asked me either so.. Im still on the DL or whatever. LOL.. Well as I have mentioned before its this 51 yr old man that is employed here. He is a hot mess. Last summer (05) he tried to get with me but I was not interested. So I told him I was not going to date him because 1. he was 51 2. which he could be my daddy 3. he was uncircumsized and people who know me know that I am not fond of them unless I love the person. 4. Im not anyone's fuck buddy and if I have one its gone be someone I picked 5. He is a top and what the hell 2 tops gone do. So he kept on thinking he could whoo me.. Then he did what I never expected an old man to do.. He bad mouthed me to company's gay clique and made it seem like I was tryin to get him and mess with him while we were at work. Well it got back to me so I been ignoring him since I heard about it. So he had me trapped in the breakroom by my self. He said are you still mad at me? "MAD aint it.. I fucking hate you MUTHAFUCKER. How in the hell you gone do me like that? Here im young and you got muthafuckers thinking im easy. I dont appreciate the bullshit and I aint gone stand for it. And dont tell me you didnt talk about it... Cause no one cause tell me this shit if you didnt!" Ok Im sorry for talking about you and discussing you. I was wrong! "DAMN RIGHT! " Can we be at least cordial? "MUTHA FUCK YOU! How the hell can I be cordial with you and you have fucking slandered my got damned name and think the shit is cute. Keep on laughing muthafucker.. keep on and I got you next time I see you at Jackson Park.. You better fucking hope I dont catch you in the woods or coming out with your pants down and a pictute mysteriously appears all over the fucking agency you fucking old ass CUNT! I dont like shit and I dont want to be a part of any so keep my fucking name out your mouth. NOW WE CAN BE CORDIAL." Can you believe this?