Mean As Hell- NOT

Last night my ex finally made his way to my house at about 10:40, I was mad because I told him that I had to work this morning. He kept blaming it on his cousin saying he taking to long in Lincoln Mall. I must have been born yesterday because to my knowledge the mall closes at 9pm. He was probably doing his favorite past time smoking reefer, LOL. Anyway he arrives in his bat mobile. This old ragedy car that I could smell the oil burning when I hit the front door. Im like hurry and get that piece of shit from in front of my house. Hell if he didnt wake up my aunt the car was going too. LOL. He was like ride with me to drop off my cousin and I was scared, Im not stuck up or anything but I was scared to ride in this car. I kept thinking I hope I got enough for bus fare. I couldnt see out the window and I could hear air blowing. I was going crazy but shut up Maurice at least he got a ride thats paid for. LOL.. Personally i'd rather pay a car note each month. So we came back and chilled and he was talking and I was tired im like is it time for you to go home. We're not going to have nor am going to let you touch me smelling like a ziplock bag full of weed. Besides that your my ex and imma keep it like that. Niggas think they can run game but not on me. He told me"Your mean as hell," and I told him well you made me this way now get out. It was 1 something then and I had to be up at six. "Your mean as hell,"Lately thats what I been hearing from people. I hear it from Cash, Co-worker, Dolton, Dekalb1, and others who are not important enough to name. I am not mean at all, Im actually one of the nicest people you could ever meet. If you call me i'll be there, if you need something and I got it, Ill give it to you. I've even let you get away with stuff. Im a social worker and I have genuine love for everyone. But When is enough, ENOUGH? When I become the evil bitch that I can become it is because someone has angered me, did something to me, or simply hurt me which in turn the true Gemini I am strikes back and gets them. But then its too late and Im not going to stop being mean until I am good and ready and to be honest thats almost never. My feelings at times are very fragile and if you break one then im mad and then im a bitch until you apologize or im over it. Im learning to get over stuff much quicker than I used to. Now I tend to separate myself from the situation at hand and simply ask that they lose my number and never contact me again. Why is it that when you tell someone to never call you again its like they're number gets embedded in your head? Like starbucks and Dekalb2, I know one and recognize the other when dialed. Hell I was going through my voicemails and heard messages I saved from him and I was like oh wow! Now I think I will go to bed now cause im tired AS HELL.Co-worker sends me this message and it touched my whole heart. "Oh Maurice, the flowers are beautiful, I can not tell you how I feel. I am totally humbled by the words. I thought about our friendship just today and wondered why i love you so unselfishly and why you came onto my life, guess ILL never know. Love You Much, Thank You and God Grant YOU much Favor !!!" I love her to death and really miss her at work. I cant wait until she is healed by his stripes and comes back to work. My life just aint the same since she be Gone.