Do not feed Stray animals

Quick thoughts out of the head of Maurice.............

"Never ask someone to make time for you, if you arent willing and trying to make time for them"

"He that desires friendship should present himself friendly"

"I care not so much what I am to others as what I am to myself" -Michel Montaigne

First off I really am not in the best of moods and its because of many different factors.. people, the weather, and my HORRIBLE sleeping patterns. Every night I have been waking up at like 3 or 4 either from someone waking me or I just get up. This is bad on my body when I go back to sleep and get up at 5:50 -6 o'clock. I am not an angry BLACK GAY MAN I spent my evening filling out my tree, LORD, I totally forgot what it was to put that tree together since the last time I put it up I was a freshman in College. Then I spent the remainder of the evening chatting and reading blogs. Then the thought came to my head as I was relaxing in my floor last night preparing for bed, why do we as people make time for others when they have no intention of making time for you. We as black GAY men have went through this many times. We give our all to have our feelings stomped on and trampled with like a Lion chasing its prey through the grasslands of Africa. I dont get it, so from now on I am not feeding into anyones else SHIT, I am going to worry about me cause I know I always have my own best interest at heart.

You ever heard that saying that if you feed a stray animal then they will always continue to come back to be fed. I found it to be true. When I was younger and if I had some fruit that was going bad or some bad that was becoming hard and moldy I would throw it out in the back yard for the birds and squirrels to come and get it. Once they realized that it stopped, they left because it wasnt there and they realized maybe that if they continued to sit there that maybe they would be eaten alive by the stray Cats.

Stop Feeding the FIELD Monkeys in your life people. I vowed earlier this week that closure from a lot of people in life was going BE Lived by before 2006 was over. Field monkeys are similiar to that of a porch monkey. Porch monkeys are the people who i call Black Trash, the ones who sit on porches and drink, and do nothing with their lives. Field moneys are people who are educated, but thrive on being bitches and assholes to society.
So Listed are the Monkeys in my life that I stopped feeding on Sunday.

1. The Captain(a.k.a Satan and Starbucks), after our short lived love affair, I noticed that any chance of us being friends was not going to happen. Foolishly I retaliated everytime he said something to me. Thats what he wanted because he knew I would give it to him. Even if he continues to be a thriving, desperate for attention human being I will not be feeding into his idiocracies any longer. I am grateful to have met him because he showed me that an educated fag is no better or saner than an uneducated Fag.

2. My Parents- who have never done anything for me but put undue stress on my life like THE CAPTAIN. I love them but the chances of us having a relationship aint gone work.

3. Stupid Fags- Once again The Captain falls into this catergory, I have no room for them in my life because Im better than that and on top of that... They really hold no real place in anyones life, probably not even in their own families life.

4. Its more to my list but those are the three main.
So with this said.. Its all erased!~