Changes-Saturday 10/8/05

This is from Friday and Saturday.... Friday was a very tiring day for me. I went to work and by noon..I was ready for my bed. I came home after work and talked to my Cousins wife who was trying to clock tea and etc. LOL...us folks thats been on the DL know how to keep it hid. Finally she was done talking and I could go to bed. I showered, talked to Justice and went to bed. I woke up at 10:45 to get dressed. Boy did I not want to go...i was exhausted. Well Twin came to get me and Westside came by. Uhm.....I got two niggah in my house at once. Hell I was so tired...I didnt care who was here. LOL..Sex was the last thing on my mind that night. Westside said I was being Evil...He has not seen evil yet. Twin drove us to the club..and then we met Winthrop and his man up there. I shoulda stayed at home..I was not feeling it at all. Thinking maybe I would see Naperville cause he said he was going too...Niggah was a no show... and it figures. I didnt feel motivated to dance or nothing of the sort. I really didnt feel to good as it was it and everything and everyone irritated me. So I sat in one spot and then from that spot to another until I left. Some people just know how to URK me sometimes. Well then we leave and then I get the nastiest look from two people. Needless to say I didnt care...cause it was time to go. Twin dropped everyone off and then went home himself. I got right back at 7 am and began my day..Cleanting my room,etc. I then went and took 87th street to the store and then dropped him off and left his house and headed on my way to Dekalb....and do you know I was Rear Ended by this white lady I dont know what the hell she was doing but her car suffered the most damage. All I got is a few scratches to my bumper. She lost her whole front end assembly. OK so I continue on my trip to Dekalb and I talked to quite a few people and was getting mad cause Dekalb had not called me back after he begged me to come there. So I talked to Charleston whom I will call EIU For future reference. Ok, we havent been talking much and stuff. He feels that I have changed...I have not changed that I think. Well he was saying cause we dont talk and do things like we used to. Well honestly he doesnt call me either and what am I too do. I mean I love my friend but sometimes he can be a little to extreme for me causing me back away sometimes. Then of course the incident at hand....With the 19 year old and all that did not strengthen our relationship. And now that he has a man whom I dont care for that much.....Also is another barricade in our friendship/relationship. I guess I can deal with him for the sake of us. So, I get to Lincoln dorm and Dekalb comes out with an EYE BROW piercing. Way to much for me. That just blocked any other chances of us ever getting back together. Cause that was too gay for me. I told him I would not approve of it before he went and did it. TO TO MANY things. I really like him but. I asked him if he strives to be a Fag? he said no...but it is my belief he does. Well he took me to lunch and then he went back to his room so I could go back to sleep...He didnt want me to sleep cause he wanted to play. And one thing lead to another. I banged....and he made me stop telling me I was hurting him....These Bottoms of today. I left and went home. TO my Surprise JUSTICE CALLED ME TONIGHT. We talked for a couple minutes and then he got off the phone. I made it home and went to bed until Sunday.