The Learning of patience

Everytime I turn around he keeps blessing me!!! Thats how I feel on today. I woke up this morning and sent Justice an IM saying that our MEET Date we had arranged conflicted with my job duties. I got to work and got on the computer and argued with Naperville, which has become an everyday ritual. I guess when Justice woke up he hit me on the computer and said cool!!! He let me know how tired he really is and I told him if he wanted to stick around until about 1:15pm then I would be able to come and meet him. Well he said he would call me and let me know if he was sticking around. When I arrived at my desk from lunch there was a message from Westside telling me he was on the way to my job to have lunch with me. WOW!!!! OF course I didnt believe him, but he came although drunk. I went to get him as he was walking down the street to my job. I went to the restaurant and he sat and watched me eat then he told he didnt want to go home and wanted to go to work with me. OH WOW!!! To much to hide and a risk im taking allowing a man to go to work with me. I was like they gone Clock tea. So I sit and think of a lie to tell them and all alone he thought I was taking him back t0 the train. To his surprise I pull up into the parking lot of my job. I took him to work with me. OK Your my Dad's nephew..LOL... He came in and sat and talked with my co-workers and shit......MY First Name...is now in the open...God now someone whom I dont know so well knows my First name which I hate. Ok This day we BONDED and started something better.. We went to McDonalds after work and then I took him to the train so he could start his commute home. We talked once he got close to his...Uhmmm He thinks that I am nasty...Really im not. Then Naperville begins telling me about he is tired of hearing me talk about other boys and what they do for me. He trying to act like he cares when I say stuff about boys...." I DID NOT SAY LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE I GET TIRED OF HEARING WHAT OTHER NIGGAS DO FOR U THAT BULLSHIT GETS OLD" I had to tell him:we aint together..and if I got some of the attn from someone who supposedly "WANTS TO KNOW ME BETTER AND BE WITH ME" then I could say that instead of saying what my friends do for me. I mean he has a car and still doesnt come see and even when i try to see him he doesnt try to see me. So I am really getting tired of the shit. If he wants to get to know me then he knows what to do. He treats me shady as hell and I am tired of the bullshit. I didnt see Justice today. I've been learning patience cause I have been being very patient with Justice. I used to be a person who sought instant gratification..But now I try to sit back and wait on it to just happen. If it is to be then it will be. Patience is a virtue from GOD....Everyday I sit and wait patiently everyday and wait 4 U 2 come into my life...a man who waits...waits for a good thing and I hope its you...Thats how I feel now....Justice...Lets do this...... I was talking to Dolton...My ex girlfriend/best homie lover friend... she responds to my tagline on YIM saying, "I sit and wait too, for God to send me the right man, one who is caring and understanding. One who loves me and one who will be by side no matter what I am goiong through. One who is not ashamed to kiss and hold hands in public. One who says, "That's my Girl!" One who buys me gifts just cause its Wednesday. One who is not afraid to show their true feelings to me. One who says, "Tiff I need you." So I sit and wait oh so very patient." That was sweet and I know it was directed to me, cause in the next breath she says ....But it has not happened yet.