I give up

In my pursuit of my finding friendship it has been a very very hard task.I give up on friendship.....I woke up this morning and I could immediately tell it was going to be one of those days...I woke up still mad..so I sent a text message and said how I felt. I went upstairs to eat my breakfast and they called me...well then they had an attitude. I called them back and left a message. They called me back at work..Well they told me I was overreacting and that it was their perogative to say what they want and to talk about in their conversation if they had something to do with it. Personally...I still dont see how thwy had anything to do with it. Repeating some of things I said and then telling me about somehow the guy read my blog..now imagine I aint tell him my address so if he read it to him then someone gave it to him..Trust issues...I will continue to have them because no one can be trusted. .....I had to read Naperville because he likes to run his mouth too...He needs to learn that whatever I say to him it is not for him to run and tell it. After that he thought it would be best if we remain friends, well I dont care cause I am not going to beg anymore to be my man. Then I todl him there was no need for us to be friends cause i dont need anymore friends cause I wont trust them. I give Up....Hell can someone tell me what exactly does a friend entail? Simply I have the perception of what it means. Once again thanks Twin for your support. Continuing to still have a bad day. Since this morning my head has still been hurting to the point where I was unable to focus on my work. Then at lunch I spilled hot water on my pants leg. Justice said he was going down town and maybe we will meet when I get off work. We'll see... Not motivated right now....Will finish later.