Learn from your mistakes the first time

Today was the day that I realized that you don't tell your "Friends" anything about your personal life or anything else that you dont want the world to know. Last night I hung with some friends and nothing really went down. This morning I talked to EIU and he wanted to know why he didnt recieve a phone call. So I told him some things and left it at that. About an hour goes by. I got out the shower and came to a missed called and a voicemail. I listened to the voicemail and basically it was a voicemail cursing me out for sharing the information that went down last night. At that point I remembered why I kept my fucking business to myself and why I didnt talk to certain people about shit that didnt concern them at all. I was so fucking furious that I fucking screamed and remembered thats why I have no close friends. I was so mad all i could do was to sit and think. Then I called EIU to ask why he running his fucking mouth again. Of course he did no wrong, BULL FUCKING SHIT, he is the only one I held a conversation with so who else could it be. I was getting even more furious at the fact that he was trying to deny any of it that I hung up the phone. Then I began to see RED in my pupils... representing the hate I held towards the people who intentionally try to ruin my life. Then to top that off this third and fourth party information had been passed from EIU to Cash and then to other person that was involved. I get another from voicemail from this person. Who is mad at me and has every right to be. I called him and all I could was Im sorry for saying what went on at your house. He wasnt trying to hear it. FINE, I want to thank everyone involved for helping to make someone dislike me. Then I hear the story as it has passed from mouth and everybody putting their twist on it. Of course (fag shit), the story was totally wrong and basically someone lied to sum it up. SOMEONE IS A FUCKING LIAR and it wasnt me. I dont know why I even thought that I could start telling EIU shit seeing as tho I had a run in this summer with him for once again telling something that I told him. Just as I thought i was getting my friendship circle back in a 360 someone goes and fucks it all up and making it a semi circle. I texted him and let him know it was all good and that I saw what type of people I dealt with. With seeing that, I like my life the way it is.. in solitude away from people. You know i'll keep my shit to myself that way THE FAGS(you know who you are) dont have to call me a drama queen. I also let him know I dont fuck with him like that NO MORE. His reasoning is that "expressed genuine concern with a mutual friend for A FRIEND. BULLSHIT.... besides being nosey and spreading/ starting shit like he did he aint expressed shit to me. My answer to him was that if I wanted to share it with him then I would have and I dont need anyone to verify, check up, or see who the fuck I was with. Thats bullshit and I have every right to be angry. He wished me a Happy New Year, I told him dont wish me shit, to stop talking to me, and to have a GOOD DAY. I was done with it all. I was still raging so I went and got me a big ass top shelf margarita and I feel so much better now. I will spend my news year weekend like I had it planned... With my drink in my hand and in my bed. I aint going to the clubs cause i dont feel like no bullshit since everyone had to run their mouths and put their twists on things. Im going Paint balling now..Oh, and you tell me now why my unforgiven hearts still exists. Ill Holla