Its time to stop the rain from pouring

Last night I went to Osco to pick up the new meds the Doc gave me. I needed them cause my head was killing me. I mean I was losing my sight and going deaf at the same time, thats how intense the pain was. I stopped by co-workers house and sat in a chair with an ice compress on my forhead and a cold towel on the back on my neck. Then I finally get up and go home and my mom calls me crying and all irrate telling me my Grandfather had suffered a stroke and a heart attack. OH WOW! Now something else to add to my list of worries.. But im not gone worry about him or anything else right now cause my health is whats important right now. I woke up this morning and layed in bed because I didnt want to stir my head up and make it start hurting again. I layed there for about an hour and a half and then decided it was time to clean my room and get my life insurance papers out, Car term life insurance papers, and my paper with my wishes out for my family should something happen to me. I didnt touch the HELL-O-PHONE and anyone calling or texting it would hear from me whenever. I saw it flashing a few times but I pressed the stop button and went on about my day. If a person doesnt call the house phone then they wont be talking to me. Around eleven my head started hurting again so my pill popping day started and I couldnt go get my CT Scan because the dumb doctor didnt set it up. Ok so now Imma have a law suit against the Dr's office too. So now I have all that in order I continued to throughly clean my room until I threw it all away. Then I thought out some blogs to write then I decided not too but keep them close to my heart. It time for me to worry about Maurice and not another person on this earth. Its time to let people be, to not let people get to me, stop stressing over things in which I cant change. IT's TIME for a new life! Its time for so much more but I aint gone get into it. The first one person I had to get told was my mother. She called me and said when were we leaving to go see about pops. I told her look lady, I aint going no where I dont feel well and i aint driving anywhere to check on anyone. She told me I was selfish. Then I went in for the read. "I am not selfish, not in the least bit, I have spent my entire life caring for others and making sure everyone was taking care, but not a soul cares that I am ill. He is ok and well taking care of i'm sure since he is in a hospital. Besides there is nothing we can do since either of us has a PHD in medicine." She was speechless! The HELL-O- PHONE continued to ring but I still have not touched it. Well I have more to say but my head has started pounding again from the lights and this screen i'll finish it tommorow. PRAY for me and my POPS!