I am changing

On Friday I thought I was going to die, literally leave here. I caught some kind of nasty Stomach virus and it was going to take me out. I was in the mall with one of my clients and I broke out in a mean sweat and hives with my insides feeling like they were melting away. I wanted to scream at the fact I had to use the public restroom. I went home and went to bed because I didn’t want to die while I was awake.
I attempted to get my windows tinted cause a freak like me cant ride around untinted. I don’t want no one driving next to me and be like that “Maurice”, “Innocent freak”, “Marcus”, or “babydreds” as I used to be called. Hell besides that I might want to get busy in my backseat and I cant have no one looking directly at me without some form of a shield. Just kidding, I have innocence to uphold! So Later that day I went out to lunch with my young uncle who is 20. Well I really don’t know him so I thought that it would be a GREAT idea for us to get to know one another before my grandfather passes away. Well anyway I notice that he wears typical fag clothes and pumps and tight lil leather jacket. So his sleeve came up a little and I saw a rainbow wrist band. OMG, I ignored it and acted like I didn’t see it. See we went in the restaurant and we’re talking and again I see it and I couldn’t resist.
Me: Unc what’s that around your wrist?
UNC: A wrist band
Me: What kind of brand is that? Is that for your Fraternity?
Unc: No it’s a pride band,
Me: What are you proud of?
UNC: It’s a Gay Pride Wrist band!
Me: Huh, what? (Eyes widen, heart rate increases, and I clutch my heart) repeat that!
Unc: what’s wrong? Are you ok? But yeah it’s a GAY PRIDE wrist band
Me: So your GAY?
UNC:YES
I said ok and went on to say why didn’t you tell me. I LOVE gay people. LOL. He said he thought my sister would have told me. Well she did try too but I didn’t listen cause Girls always talking about someone gay. Anyway, I didn’t tell my own T and Ill tell him when he turns 21 and I go down to his school. At least I know now I am not in this alone.
I am in the market for a new laptop and I am unsure of what kind to get? Any suggestions!?
I don’t know why but I been feeling like being a whore. LOLOL… I mean me, the innocent freak wants to go out and have sex with different people. LORD, I know people are surprised at me but needless to say I am the innocent freak and I just want to do it and im not actually going out doing it. I had this dream about picking up this shawty, getting my dick, laying him on his back on the park bench and/or picnic table and just licking, sucking, and eating him up. I know I would enjoy it and so would he. Then I keep having dreams of me…. LORD, having sex in my car without my windows being tinted. Do I dream Freaky or what? And why do I have dreams about certain members of 360 and our sexual encounters? Who do you think I dream about? It could be you!
So now I think I am changing and its for the better. I think I have lost some weight and I have made at least a 250 degree lifestyle change not quite to 360 yet. I’ve stopped eating meat, consuming more vegetables, No sugars, decrease in carbs, drastic decrease in fast food. What I miss most is my cookies? I also been working out at least 4 days a week including 2 days of personal training. I am building up my strength and I’m glad because now I can pick some of you up and……………
Anyway, I picked up my ex-gf for work this morning. Tell me why are we sneaking around and her FIANCE was in the house. Anyway, this is the first time I picked her up at her house. She was sitting in the car waiting on me and got out and made the alarm go off. WTF, you trying to be incognegro and then gone set off the alarm. So she comes running down to my car and says hurry up and drive off. We were talking and everything was cool until I picked up my coworker. When he got out, she said is he GAY? I said I don’t know… I don’t know him like that. That opened another can of worms. LORD, I guess us sneaking around is over. But the funny part is that her fiancée called and my police radar started going off….