How about you learrn to help your damn self?

Hey whassup? I know its been a long time since I blogged but I still checked yall out from time to time. You wouldn’t believe it but I lost my phone which I lost everything. LORD, who ever has the phone has a great amount of porn. I mean I had videos, pictures and any other kind of media. Besides that I lost all of my friends phone numbers. So any of you that wants me to have your number again shoot it to me again in a message and even those that want me to have yours can show it to me. My life has been consumed with going to the gym, working with the personal trainer, and working my 2 jobs, and School which might I add I’m thinking of dropping out for the simple fact it is starting to interfere with my personal life and I ain’t feeling it at all. LOL.. I did manage to swing a 3.92 Cum GPA. And right now in my class I actually have a 100% which I am very shocked because when I tell you this professor is HARD. She is hard and don’t care what you got to do but turn in her work.
So yesterday on my way to work I ran into my ex-girlfriend . Immediately my feelings for her came back and she initiated the exchanging of phone numbers. I mean she called me like 30mins after I gave her the number and then she began to tell me about her child and fiancée. Did I get a little jealous? Hell Yeah. But we talked for about 3 hours last night and that meant a lot to me. So why did she sneak around the corner from her house so that I can pick her up and take her to work? What do you think about that? Well I asked a mature woman at my job about it. She said that we have unresolved feelings or she is still interested in me. Do I love her? YES! We’ve been talking so I will see where this goes.
Over the last few days or maybe weeks different people have been telling me that I am mean and evil. I do not believe that I am and it’s not because I’m being facetious and saying NO! They say it because I stated “If you don’t care, then I surely don’t give a DAMN”! I told the three people that if they wanted to smoke and pollute their lungs then by all means then gone ahead and do it. I simply said if you want to smoke 6 packs a day, then by all means DO IT, just don’t tell me when you’re sick from it because you didn’t want to help yourself. Does this make me mean?
I am so OVER the young people outside at Gas Stations, grocery stores and everywhere else asking for Change. I simply tell them NO because they are able bodied young men who can go and get a job. I’m sorry if you think that your to good to work at McDonalds or somewhere. It’s a mess! Does this make me mean?
Next is my family, who thinks that I am a money Tree. I bet think that I am a big ol Oak tree in the rainforest who produces dollars as leaves. Now they run me low asking me for money. They like to borrow money and then never pay it back or they continuously want more. I simply told them not to call me asking me for anything because I am not helping them any longer. Everyone can do what they want with their money but I am supposed to not spend mine on me but save it for them. NAW, I have had about enough. I ain’t gone call anyone out but I am simply gone let them hit rock bottom because I ain’t helping anyone cause its time for me to enjoy my life and not take care of anyone. Does this make me Mean?