Sick and Tired of being sick and tired

This last week has been one stressful week and once again my emotions are running HIGH. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I’m sure some of you have had these times in your life. If it ain’t one thing then its another. But through it all I managed to pull off an A in my class. Not just an A but a 100% in this class. I just need a vacation alone and away from People. I’m FED up and my cup is running and spilling over.
1st it’s the whole ex-girlfriend fiasco. I mean she wants to have her cake and eat it too, who does she think she is. Guess what? I’m the stupid one for falling for someone else’s woman the nerve of me. I have gotten all tied up into her only for my heart to be yanked, twisted and literally pulled out of my chest. I heard the song the “Truth Is” by Fantasia and that brought back so many memories. She is dead wrong for leading me on. So I’ve been depressed about it. I don’t know why I feel like that either. My friend Debbie has been talking to me on a daily basis. I can only account these feelings to be lonely to allow an engaged woman to come into my life and take my heart. I usually a strong person and doesn’t allow anything or anyone but I guess I’m pretty vulnerable to allow it.
I’m going to put it out there in the OPEN.. MAURICE is lonely and been that way for some months. My past relationship hit a rocky road a long time ago and everything WENT down Hill until it was OVER. Towards the end it was not that GREAT and I was beginning to GET lonelier by the day. So the thought of someone paying attention to me other than my friends just THRILLED me.. Someone actually likes me… Someone thinks I might make a great lover….. So lonely, vulnerable, thrilled me Jumped on the opportunity.. ONLY to face Reality… SHE STILL BELONGS To someone else and that I will be left lonely.
I have this co-worker whom I will call GORGEOUS. Gorgeous Runs me lower than the people run President Bush’s approval rating. Im damn near empty. Well I have noticed a while back that he is in competition with me like we’re competing in the GAY Olympics. Who in the Fizzy does he think he is? Like when I bought my car, he then had to compete with me and tell me that he was getting a 2005 Nissan Armada Fully loaded with 20k miles on it and no money down for 515/ month. Who is stupid? Then he comes in with these elaborate stories of Grandness and he is not even close to being HIGH Grade. But to top this story off… He first told me that he was in GRAD school. So why did he tell me last Wednesday that he applied and by Thursday when we got off work.. He was enrolled.. and starting his class that evening.. WHO is stupid.. The semester is almost over and I’m sure they wouldn’t start a class on a Thursday right before Easter. Talk about DELUSIONAL!
So I created me another Adam4Adam profile. Why is it the same tired old people from last year and the year before. The same lies, same bullshit, the same everything. What seems to amaze me is the fact that the people see a new profile and then they flock to it. I had one of my old dips to hit me up telling me he just moved here from ATL. I looked at the Profile.. and said NO you didn’t. He got mad. Then they claim they don’t want sex but instead.. they pad it and make it seems like they want friendship.. SO why is it in the first 10 mins of our conversation am I asked “How big is your dick”? Why? Well cause You’re a top.. LOL..WTF does that have to do with anything?