The Lord is blessing me.....Last 48 hours

Dolton was here on Sunday night being 1 2 many things. LOL, she kept telling me that everyone was my boyfriend. GOD, if your a man when she is around stop calling me. She was making me mad as hell. I know I been MIA for the last couple days but my last 48 hours(really 96) have been hell. Twin has been giving me too much for one person of my mental state to handle. Starting on Thursday he been going full force especially on Sunday. Nigga take a chill pill. So Sunday night I went to bed very very late. I finally turned my phone back on and called Westside back, he was on the phone and I guess he sensed something was either wrong or bothering me cause he called right back. I couldnt sleep so we talked for about an hour until the time get really late. So, I went to sleep around 1a. I woke up at 6 tired as hell and hit the snooze button until I was ready to get up. I could tell that this was going to be another one of those bad days for me. Starting with me not wanting to get out of the bed, usually the start of a bad day for me. I went to work and totally did not want to be there. I walked around with an attitude all day, Twin was pissing me off, everything about this day was making me mad. All my co-workers and supervisors were asking me whats wrong. NOTHING, cant a person just be having one of those days. Then I got called into my bosses office and got read, LOL. "The only way your going to find happiness is to find some new friends cause these aint working out for you." Stop talking to those people who continuously make you mad. Right now those are not the people you need in your life." Sadly, to say she may have a point. I dont know why but Older people are so much better to get alone with than younger people. I love to have older woman as my friends...better friend than any fag could ever be. My cup had run over and needed to be emptied and made new (new friends). That was a sigh of relief and I realized that my "friends" are the cause of my hardship, heartache, and pain. I got off and went home to get ready for the House of Hope benefit concert. Waiting on my late family, we didnt get good seats. I swear they are going to be late for their funerals, LOL. I was talking to Twin and he began to act a fool once again. God, now Im thinking perhaps my Twin likes me. Well, I didnt sit with them I sat with my friend the Dr, her mom, and her friends. We had a great time in the LORD!! All my burdens were lifted and my cup was emptied and the cup was purified. I actually cried out for me to help me. GOD SHOWED AND HE SHOWED OUT, once again. I love him, he has been good to me. That was over at about 11, so I came home and got ready for work and bed. I am still tired from the night before. WOW!!! I talked to Dekalb and Westside before I went to bed which was after midnight once again. It keeps getting later and later by night. GO TO BED!!! I woke up and got ready for work. Some people in Chicago, do not know how to drive. This man was driving in front of me and if I had a gun I would have blown his head off. Speaking of GUN, I am going to look into getting me one..real soon. Tired of people!!!! I am not sure if he was falling asleep at the wheel or not but he was making me mad. I got to work and had a relatively descent day. Now, I am not worrying about a thing. I chatted with Naperville all day as I usually do. We surely know how to laugh together. Twin let up today and actually said I could be friends with the person. Then someone who shall remain nameless made Naperville mad. then I looked on miy Yahoo messenger and this person's tagline caught me by surprise it said: "I had a revelation Saturday, and that is im gonna stop talking to those that claim to be the best friend in my life when they dont include me in their life." LOLOL, now this I read and I must admit I laughed for about an hour after I read that. Now that was some funny stuff. LOL, IM STILL LAUGHING. Now, in the midst of my laughter, STL, hit me up telling me : Always know that everyone we meet will not be everything we want. But when your HEART speaks and they understand the words than they are eveything you need, want and seek. Take the time and invested in someone regardless of their past and yours (and this site) and be faithful to the one that understands the silent spoken words that are coming from the heart. If know one has told you that they are proud of you,, I am proud of you,If know one has told you that they love you, I love youIf know one has told you that they see a light in you, I see the lightIf know one has told you, you are a man and you are accepted, than i am telling you now, you are a man and I accepted you for who you are. I love him so much. He knows when to come cheer me up. I send him the tagline and he bursts out in laughter too. Im crying and laughing. Now people I know you wondering why I am laughing simply cause I know it was directed at me. LOL. Dont leave it in a tagline, just say it to me verbally or in a text. Im n0t worried about it Cause GOD loves me. LOL. Ok, Today i've really had enough of Twin cause he is being a total Butt hole. All day long he has been making snide remarks, pissing me off. Next time he says something, Im going to make it happen. So, Twin quit pissing me off. Then I been talkking to an assoc of mine, they want me to come over later after work. Dolton was waiting for me at the house when I got there. So I could give her some money. Then I had to read her cause I am sick and tired of her acting brand new, and not talking to me bottling it up inside. It really hurts me that she is afraid to talk to me. While I was talking to her she was looking at me. TALK NIGGAH, LOL. She then to tell me that she read my blog and it hurt her. Then she started telling me about Westside and how I love him. HE is my friend. During this time to mom called again telling me to come to the hospital. So I could run in the house get my clothes on, I stopped and busted me one, and headed to the hospital. I nutted some much it ran out the paper towel and down my leg unto the floor. He got here and we went to the hospital and sat there for a couple hours. Talked to Westside on the way out there, cause he called, when I felt comfortable enough to talk to him around my brother. He told me I was ugly and no one wants me. LOL!!!! He wants me!! I was suppoosed to go visit an associate, I couldnt go, and Im tired as hell. Well I texted him and told him I was taking her home and would see him later. Kmart called me, and I know he wanted to get down but didnt say nothing. Neither did I, Im tired anyway. Im going home and going to bed...Ill Holla.