Im Back

I know to my readers I have not been writing as I should be. Since Tues I have not written, and did one for wednesday but never posted it but I will at a later date. But over the last five days things have been revealed to me and thats what I will do. First my mom is doing a little but not at her greatest potential. There is either something she is not telling up or she needs to go back to the hospital. Another concern was for my own health, which is pretty much ok. All others medicine have been prescribed for them. That is why I been kind of distant everyone cause I have been dealing with that. Then I have to November first to get out of here and I have not found a place to live. I guess I will be living in a hotel until I find something. I know God will do what he wants to do regarding that so i aint the least bit worried about it. I realized this week that you cant be friends with everyone. The people are them. They are phony, backstabbers, shady, and to sum it up 1 2 many things that I care not to know about. I met some interesting new people and 1 I hope that I can get to know him. I erased 10 phone numbers out of my phone to get rid of the unnecessary people in my life. It has been revealed to me once again that I only have 1 true best friend and the rest are just friends, mere associates, or nothing at all. "I had a revelation Saturday, and that is im gonna stop talking to those that claim to be the best friend in my life when they dont include me in their life." LOL, I keep seeing this on Yahoo messenger and everytime I see it, I am immediately filled with laughter. Believe me the revelation I had told me to keep all m,y stuff to myself. To anyone who has been friends with a fag, know that they are messy as hell.....and they do anything by any means necessary to drag you down. They are envious of others.... I been talking to Westside on a daily basis now, I am so glad we are able to start being great friends. On Thursday, I went out with Twin and KMart..We had so much fun...That was the most fun Ive had in a while with some "friends." I was horny and really feeling Kmart that night. I wanted to take him and sop him up with this dick. When we left the restaurant he got in the front seat...so I was rubbing on his thigh making his man get hard. So then it happened, I rubbed on it in the car. Ok, Twin he is not a cock blocker but he was in the way to stop it from happening. LOL. Pray my friend We'll call her Co-worker...She was injured today at work and her dog ran away. So she has been going through alot. Imma miss her while she is gone....I told her to take off a couple months. Dekalb has been acting funny and shady as hell to me..Why? I have to keep calling him, he doesnt answer when I call, picking fights with me, a whole bunch of everything, None of this ever the case before..so really whats going on....???? Thank God its Friday cause I will be catching up on some much needed rest this weekend. This guy we'll call International, sends me an email. He seems so interesting to me and I cant wait until I meet him...Sounds like a match made in heaven. I have no definite plans this evening, unless it is some head or cake pounding I wont be leaving that house. I got off and came straight home and began to clean my room, much needed and threw away some things. Also, changed my room around. I talked to Dekalb, who is still getting on my nerves. He is being shady once again. Ive called him, left messages and once again he calls me back when he wants too....Im getting sick and tired of it. He has one strike against him already. I went to sleep on him while he was talking to me cause he is being a bore to me. Now, I recall what blogger was saying he is a liar. I cant figure out when in hell does he have to lie to me? Ive done nothing to him. I get up early Saturday morning and I called EIU, cause I didnt call him back on friday night messing around with Dekalb. We talked and didnt argue or fight and Im proud of us. I then talked to Dekalb, and of course he is so full of it... he tells me I'll call you back...Then forget that niggah, i aint gone lose a minutes sleep over him. I busted a nice one on webcam for a few people. Then I talked to Westside who is getting extra grande, 1 2 many things. *I hope he dont change on me. Then I was called upstairs to remove the carpet out the front room. My aunt is always thinking of tasks for me to do like I am the carpenter. I get done and came back and busted another big one on cam....thats so HOTT!!! I called Naperville at 6pm to see if we were still on for our date at the movies. He didnt answer and texts back telling me he was at the car dealer. I was happy for him cause he been wanting a new car. Dolton came over and we went to the Grand Opening of my cousins coffee shop, 91st Beverly, named Teal. Stop by sometimes. We came back here and talked for like hours...the first time weve ever talked. She left and I returned my phone calls. I texted Naperville at 11:44pm and said "I guess your still at the car dealer." No one was answering but Dekalb did. Pay attention I aint returning his phone call...cause he never called me back for earlier. He comes up with all these excuses as to why he didnt call me back. Niggah just be a man about it and tell me the truth. He kept lying and making up excuses. So now he's pissing off and now he has me yelling...So now I throw it all up in his face everything he has been doing to me. So now he tells me he has been shady to me cause of who I talk too. HE hates them so I shouldnt talk to him. Ok, stud aint crossed my path the wrong way so why shouldnt at least be his associate. Its not like I talk to him everyday. I pray over him and I tell him good bye Ill talk to him later. He told me I couldnt get off the phone cool!! Imma just go to sleep...Which I did..I prayed the sinners prayer and repented...and went to sleep on him.. I get a text at 12:46am from Naperville telling me about he left the car dealer at 11pm. Who the hell did he think he was talking too.. Im someone who buys a new car every two years and I know car dealerships close at 6pm on saturdays.. Who in the hell wants to stay there to 11pm. That was strike three and he is no longer welcomed to talk to me ever again. He has been deleted and blocked... I get up and go to church my friend the Dr. Now she is a nut. We kicked it all day, went to my church and to Olive Garden with Twin. Time to find a new church home. Someone hit my car again. I just cant have nothing. I dont know what was wrong with Twin today...but he was trying to make me mad. HE succedded in doing so. Dekalb called me and left a message, I erased it. Imma give him some of his own medicine. I aint gone answer or return his phone calls. Better yet he never has to talk to me again. Then me and the Dr. went to Valley Kingdom Ministries, to their Festival of the Tabernacle. It was great, and now I am sitting here typing this and Dekalb is calling me..Yet in still I aint answering it, as I continue to sit here and talk to EIU. HAPPY Birthday WESTSIDE!!!!!