Im staying in your will LORD

Just giving honor to God whose is the head of my life, and thanking him for his wonderful blessings. My prayer for this day is LORD is you to purify my thoughts & to rid me of impure dealings & to strip away burdens and loads off my shoulders. This morning Harriet Miers tells the person who horribly attempts to run this country to take back his nomination (I would never call him a president cause he is not a leader). I guess she saw the mess she was getting herself into. Now to me, I dont like the person I have become in the last five years. I am not the strong, caring, loving,happy person I used to be. Now im a unhappy(at leasts that what I been told), not loving, hateful, and angry person. It all came as people kept taking my kindness as a weakness. People are mean because people made them that way. I can say I act the way I act simply because people made me that way. But I dont treat everyone the same way. If you are nice to me then I will treat you and vice versa. But growing up me was not an easy task to accomplish and only the LORD knows what I have been through. I basically raised my siblings until we were placed in the system. I was the backbone of my family and kept us up and now I have turned into this emotional person. I guess it was my time to not be so hard........... You dont know like I know what GOD has done for me. But I do know who the next person to be erased out of life and it is going to be Dekalb, he intentionally tries to make me mad. My calls are going unanswered and there is always some sorry excuse as to why I was not called back. I GUESS NIGGAH. I dont care...dont talk to me. Then he is getting like the person I met him from. As I try to have no recollection of people and dont care what they say about me in their blog, he takes it a chance to step in and be messy and did you read "Winthrops" blog I say no and dont care to read it. HE tells me I need to read it. WOW!!! I mind my own business and yet in still I am running through their minds that they have to talk about me in their blog and say that they have won the victory...What Victory cause I didnt know I was fighting in a war. And I know I have my peace of mind(VICTORY) cause I aint still writing about him nor do I care he how he feels about me. But the victory was won when I ceased contact 3 weeks ago and never mentioned them again and they said something to me. "Why must we Continue...." Why must we continue to lie to our selfs. Why must we continue to slander, and put people down just because our life isn't what we hoped it would be." Uhm, this is what he had to say about.....Im truthful to myself and others for that matter. I have not attempted to slander GODs CREATURE, yet in still he tries to slander me and defame my character when he doesnt know me. And my life is way more than what I thought it would be. Coming from a family of poverty, alcoholism,drugs, and being a ward of the state, I think I have done pretty good at making me a pretty good person. People told me my whole life I would never amount to anything and now people still want to tell me I aint got nothing going for myself. Going through the many obstacles placed in my way I succeeded and proved a way to make liar out of any person on this earth. I am a college graduate, I have a good full time job, 2 newer cars, and just about every material possession I want. And those I dont have it is cause was not ready for me to have them yet. And soon to be going back to get my Master's. So why must GODs creature insist on disturbing me with feeble taunts to make me angry. It truly show how disorganized his life is. If this creature had great association with the people around him instead of stirring up choas in the lives of others, he and I would still be the best of friends like we were or whatever we had. And he would not feel the need to be boisterous and surely would not feel the need to decieve his lover everytime he is disloyal to their relationship. Now, I would like to be left alone and act like you dont exist. I am moving on to start a more productive, stress free, spiritual, and real friend filled life.
Now to something more important as I was browsing through others blogs I couldnt help but be ecstatic and overjoyed by this poem writing by Maya Angelou. Its about hurricane Katrina which has devastasted this country, check it out.