Finding Myself

Friday afternoon I got off work and rushed home to pack so I could get out of town. I finally made up my mind to go south. At 7p, I was ready to go to clear my thoughts, come up with a solution to end my lonliness, and to figure out exactly why I am lonely at 24. In my pursuit I started driving and ended up at an associates house. Low and behold the snows starts and its coming down hard. I had to spend the night but I left first thing in the morning to get back on my journey a much needed vacation. While driving down there I talked to one of my college associates and we covered many subjects. 1st. Schooling, its time for me to go back to school been out of school for over an year. So I will be enrolling in someone's school for the next school session. 2. Financial matters... I aint gone worry about them for I know they will get better. I had so much fun while down there. While I was there I was doing some soul searching trying to find myself. I think I may have found who the true me is. Came up with solutions to my loneliness, and to answer to why I dont have any close friends. I met an associate whom I have been chatting with for a couple months. He drove over to see me so I left my friends and went and had dinner with him. It was nice meeting him and hope to see him soon. Imma have to divorce starbucks because he must think im a joke or something. I got back early this morning with a great happy spirit. Today, church was great and I was really blessed by the messages I recieved. The first thing the Evangelist said was that "people can not be blessed or delivered because of the unforgiveness they walk around with it." In a sense I needed to hear that. In the last couple weeks I been walking around mad at the world. Mad at those around me. And broke ties with a lot of people. Last week after I had my break down I was cool and stop hating myself and the world. Then she said life is to short. You dont have time to walk around trying to make people like you or trying to get anyone to be your friend. Later this week I will call and make amends with 2 people and just forget about the other person whom I could less about. Im turning all my negatives into positives and Im gone bless my future right now from this day forth. Tommorow Ill look for my apt so I can move and have a little more freedom something I surely desire.