Chastisement

I know it’s been a while since ya boy been through here. I just want to let you all know that I LOVE YALL and that I consider each of you part of my EXTENDED FAMILY. I just been ailing and grieving and having the roughest time of 2007.

These last few weeks have been rather rough, difficult, painful, sad, over stimulating and to much for me to handle. First the car accident and then being off work all week stiff as board (get ur mind out the gutter). Then to find out that this dude didn’t have a lick of insurance and that all my pain and suffering would be unrewarded and that I would have to foot the bill for my car. Then I had fights with my former friends that lead to us not being friends anymore. Its hard losing friends, especially when they are like ur family. All this in one week! Nothing in my life was going good… NOTHING at all. It seemed like everything that I touched and thought about failed.

I felt like I was being punished by GOD for all my wrong doings in the past. Anyone that had ever received a whopping from GOD knows that they are no joke. Well, I will admit that I was not as faithful as I used to be. I had not been to church, I started cursing, being mean, and didn’t give a F**K about nothing anymore. The more steps I took forward, the more I doubled back plus some. I know that test and trials make you stronger, I thought! LORD, do they have to kill you? Was GOD trying to get my attention about something? Or maybe GOD has something big in store for me coming up soon and the DEVIL was trying to take me off my course and kill me so I couldn’t get it? Its funny how the DEVIL uses the things you love, the people you love, and your weaknesses to get you down. Who foresaw this car accident? Who foresaw me losing 2 BEST FRIEND? WHO Foresaw any of the stuff that has happened to me?

My weekend was rough! I lost a client on FRIDAY so unexpectedly. I stayed in the house and packed. Well yesterday I made the choice to reclaim my life. I’m here to reap the HARVEST GOD promised and take back what the DEVIL stole from me. HE tried to take my JOY! I went to church and My Pastor was preaching a GOOD word, but something was blocking me from listening to him but I heard him. I prayed and I heard what he was saying, ITS time to MOVE ON! That’s what I needed to hear, since that was what I was doing anyway. “You don’t need the reaffirmation, re-acclamation, confirmation, validation, chastisement of anyone to do what you need to be doing”. JUST MOVE, GOD will do things in your life to get your Attention, just MOVE on it. That’s what I plan to do.

As far as Moving is concerned, I will be moving. I’m not sure yet but I am about 50% packed and Ill be vacating the premises of my SLUM LORD SOON.