Im in LOVE

The house of the righteous contains great treasure, but the income of the wicked brings them trouble.Proverbs 15:6 kjv

Just to let each of you know that I LOVE each and every one of you.
This is one of my days of randomness>

Me and Deb we're having a discussion about FORGIVENESS. The bible states that you are to forgive your brother who does you wrong and you are also to forget and not hold a grudge, so that you are forgiven. It is my thought that You are to do both of them and after that it is at the discretion of you to continue on after that. Well we both agreed that sometimes you have to let people go in order to protect your heart. I ask because I am in a situation with an ex of mine. I forgave and I forgot.. Do you think that I have to be bothered and befriend this ex for sake of me being forgiven? Or do you think that by me forgiven and forgetting about it, im done with the situation?

When I say alot, I mean alot. Why are there so many little children sneaking on BGC and hitting me up? I aint trying to catch a case! I attract younger people but no one under the age of 18.. I dont do minors. These brothers are crazy too.. They dont like you to tell them NO. Now a days you cant trust them. Thats the first thing I ask... How old are you? anything under 18 and if they are in High School.. Immediate disconnect.

So I am in the market for my new home. I found one that I am in LOVE with. TALK about Gorgeous. It's a trilevel home, with 3 beds, 3 baths, 2 car attached garage. I really want this place. PRAY for me.

Chastisement

I know it’s been a while since ya boy been through here. I just want to let you all know that I LOVE YALL and that I consider each of you part of my EXTENDED FAMILY. I just been ailing and grieving and having the roughest time of 2007.

These last few weeks have been rather rough, difficult, painful, sad, over stimulating and to much for me to handle. First the car accident and then being off work all week stiff as board (get ur mind out the gutter). Then to find out that this dude didn’t have a lick of insurance and that all my pain and suffering would be unrewarded and that I would have to foot the bill for my car. Then I had fights with my former friends that lead to us not being friends anymore. Its hard losing friends, especially when they are like ur family. All this in one week! Nothing in my life was going good… NOTHING at all. It seemed like everything that I touched and thought about failed.

I felt like I was being punished by GOD for all my wrong doings in the past. Anyone that had ever received a whopping from GOD knows that they are no joke. Well, I will admit that I was not as faithful as I used to be. I had not been to church, I started cursing, being mean, and didn’t give a F**K about nothing anymore. The more steps I took forward, the more I doubled back plus some. I know that test and trials make you stronger, I thought! LORD, do they have to kill you? Was GOD trying to get my attention about something? Or maybe GOD has something big in store for me coming up soon and the DEVIL was trying to take me off my course and kill me so I couldn’t get it? Its funny how the DEVIL uses the things you love, the people you love, and your weaknesses to get you down. Who foresaw this car accident? Who foresaw me losing 2 BEST FRIEND? WHO Foresaw any of the stuff that has happened to me?

My weekend was rough! I lost a client on FRIDAY so unexpectedly. I stayed in the house and packed. Well yesterday I made the choice to reclaim my life. I’m here to reap the HARVEST GOD promised and take back what the DEVIL stole from me. HE tried to take my JOY! I went to church and My Pastor was preaching a GOOD word, but something was blocking me from listening to him but I heard him. I prayed and I heard what he was saying, ITS time to MOVE ON! That’s what I needed to hear, since that was what I was doing anyway. “You don’t need the reaffirmation, re-acclamation, confirmation, validation, chastisement of anyone to do what you need to be doing”. JUST MOVE, GOD will do things in your life to get your Attention, just MOVE on it. That’s what I plan to do.

As far as Moving is concerned, I will be moving. I’m not sure yet but I am about 50% packed and Ill be vacating the premises of my SLUM LORD SOON.

I cant win for losing

After my hellish weekend and day yesterday. I thought let me get back into my workout routine. I leave work and decide to hit the gym bag all packed. Im sitting at the light damn the street from the gym and WHAMMMM!!!!!!!!! I looked in the mirror and saw the white car in my bumper. DAMNIT, DAMNIT, DAMNIT is all i could holla. I screamed to the top of my lungs. I was done. Now to add to the rest of my sorrows and pain... More damage to my car that I have not even had 6 months. I get out and there stands this nigga standing 5'11 cute chocolate skin. HE was to sexy I kept trying to keep from looking at him. I noticed he had some nice feet cause he was wearing house shoes, he didnt have cakes nor any underclothes on.. damn why did we have to meet on such circumstances. Maybe he was so good looking that I didnt feel the pain until after we separated. I was ready to throw in the towel, to much for Maurice in one day. I had to sit in the emergency room all afternoon to be told that I have whipblash, strained ligaments in my neck and back. My arms, shoulders and neck are fucking killing me along with the shooting pains down my legs. I am happy I am on Tylenol 4 and Motrin every 4-6 hours with rest and relaxation. Talk about on Cloud nine.

2 weekends from hell

Well as we all know the ROYAL FAMILY went to New York weekend.. Everyone else arrived at 1pm and I didn’t get there til 9. All the flight were delayed and which mine was one of them. WTF? Then I arrived and went to the rental car place who was giving me hell then I realized that my damn Debit card was gone.. WTF? Can it get any worst? Then on to the hotel which I was having the most difficulty getting too.. Talk about driving miles to correct an error. So I finally after my 4 laps around I got to the hotel. My battery was dead on my phone so I couldn’t call up. Later that evening we went to New York and I met up with my friend.
Saturday, We lost our damn minds and went shopping. At that point my phone began to be on the brinks.. DAMNIT. We got rained on and I ran out of money! I am not one to carry cash on me so It went so fast. Sunday was pretty much the same, except I didn’t have the money to shop. We ventured down to Harlem to see some historical sites. Monday, the fucking flight delayed again. NY and NJ are not some places that I will be considering moving too.
~This Weekend~
It was PRIDE time in the city and we participated in the festivities as we always do. Friday we went out to eat and then we walked around the North side. This night is when the bullshit started. We run into Cash’s guy, which we don’t like each other for some reason or some others. Well, I am a firm believer in not being phony so I didn’t say anything to him. Well at that point and it created conflict between half the group of 4. Which created a big argument all the way home.

Saturday, that was over and we started out with partaking in the festivities. I was texting someone else, when Cash decided to go through their phone. Not only violating the privacy of someone elses phone but repeating what was said back to the people who told me in the first place. This created an uproar with people not even there with us. I was fucking pissed. Because nothing that is some unnecessary drama which could have been avoided. As friends we all have to outweigh the good and bad. The good of one doesn’t outweigh the bad of others so I felt like he was only concerned with himself at that point and he lost some cool points with me at that point. Sometimes things are better left kept quiet. I just left the group and caught the bus home because I didn’t want to be in the midst of people while I was angry.

Because of this I have been fighting with my ex all weekend about the shit and this boy. It brought some things to the forefront of our “relationships. We now know we hate one another and I now who was and is most important in my life and I know it ain’t me. I been told that I am arrogant, a bitch, a queen and much more to name. Then to top it off. I was told my EX that he lost respect for me. WTF does that mean? Clearly when someone loses respect for you that means you are the scum of the earth to them. It means they dont give a damm what they say and do in front or behind your back-MrCool. It’s an ongoing fight. Now after the relationship has been over. I didn’t respect him in the relationship and all this other shit. So after hearing all I heard I know now the friendship between us over and maybe should have happened

Act like a kid if U want too

Song Im feeling at the Moment: Encourage Yourself by Donald Lawrence
My friend from LA is here and I kicked it with him all day. I woke up this morning and immediately hit the snooze…. WTF, I didn’t want to get up and boy I am tired. So I hate when I get like this, I am cranky and OVERALL a Real Bitch…. More so than ever!
People have been getting on my nerves lately because people don’t want to grow up. Life ain’t about games! People have been showing me lately how much I really mean to them.. Why is that people want you to put your all on the table and they have nothing or even try to bring anything to the table. That bothers me to no end… I say Damn what do you want me to do….. They claim to not be on bullshit but in fact that’s all they’re on… I just don’t get IT! I was not born YESTERDAY. On a more pleasant note… I kinda made amends with my family this weekend in our own way… I still have not had much convo with them but at least I’m willing to be cordial finally.
Yo Boy is still single…. But I’ve been meeting some interesting people and the bad part about it is that they are all in different cities far away. I met this 20 yr old boy and he seems to be full of drama but he real cool. I got my eye on this LOVELY lady at my church.. I want to marry her… If I only knew how to approach her... I love my ex but he is full of shit and didn’t realize he had a good thing so that’s why were single… He aint ready to grow up… TIME WAITS FOR NO ONE.
This past weekend Me, Debbie, Louis and a co-worker of mine went out originally for shopping and gathering items for my trip this upcoming weekend. I acted like a big ass KID! It started out with lots of birthday gifts from her and then a nice little lunch and ended up SOAKING WET. Me and Debbie were chasing one another through the gas station with bottles of water. Imagine my fat ass and her lil ass running around.. *** her yelling I’m gone get you Black Muthafucker*** (ME Screaming with Laughter).. LOL…. Then we went in Marshall’s clowning and fucked with the cashier. We did this dialogue of her being my wife and her taking care of me. All the while the Cashier is looking at us crazy.

Me: Babe can you buy these pants for me
Her: Yes
ME: Are you ready for me to get a job
Her: Yes im tired of paying all the bills, buying your clothes, paying your child support, and overall taking care of you.
Me: Im tired of having to beg you for money and everything…
Her: We need to go back to Texas!
ME: (grabs her around the shoulder) Babe, were not from Texas were from the Southside of Chicago. Did you take your medicine this morning? I told you about coming out without your meds.. (Cashier, looks in awww and walks away).

One of these days were going to get arrested.
We then went to Walmart, and she poured Water down my back… She ran off around the store trying to avoid me… I picked up a gallon and looked for her around the store… I finally caught her ass and she was scared. I didn’t get her get her cause Co worker was trying to protect her. But we made it back to Chicago.. Its after 12 in the morning and I remembered she wet me up so I grab the water out of coworkers car and Started throwing that shit at Debbie (her saying I’m gone get you black muthafucker. Then Co-worker pours window out her window on me…. And then I run back to my car and throw water out at her through her back windows.. OFFICIALLY the summer has begun and its on..

Gay or Straight?

First I want to give mad props to the ROYAL FAMILY for making my birthday weekend a great one. Special thanks to Kash for being the organizer of the weekend and Too Royal for driving up here.. It was all a surprise to me and I knew nothing about it. It all started out on Friday with dinner and bowling at Lucky Stripes. Madame Kornbread and the crew met us up there. Saturday some light shopping and dinner at Wildfire. Sunday, Garretts popcorn run and lunch at IHOP. I know we eat a lot.
Statefarm is pissing me off, them bitches still ain’t got my car fixed and waiting on a police report and its been damn near 2 weeks.

Today I am going to talk about the STORY of my life: SEX. Im having one of those random moments and thought I would discuss. Well, do you think that the lack of sex can make one cranky? The reason why I am asking is because I am told by many people that I am cranky and it is because I ain’t hitting that ass or pussy on a regular. What are your thoughts? I been having a lot of sexual related dreams and I can not fathom where they might be coming from. Where did the sanctity of sex go? I was having this conversation with this guy today and he showed me how fucking RUTHLESS people are.

(5/30/2007 12:57:12 PM): I'm lettin you know now, i want my back broke in while i'm single...by one nigga. somebody i can trust no strings attatched, dats clean and knows he's clean, that can promise me if he fucks somebody else dat he gone strap up...then we can take it to the next level
Mukky (5/30/2007 2:27:17 PM): Oh you want it raw?
Mukky (5/30/2007 2:29:25 PM): so what about your status?
(5/30/2007 2:29:34 PM): what about it?
Mukky (5/30/2007 2:34:59 PM): Are u sure that your not harboring any diseases that can be transferred to the top
(5/30/2007 2:35:44 PM): What I like, and what I do mean two different things...
Mukky (5/30/2007 2:36:00 PM): oh ok
(5/30/2007 2:36:01 PM): just ''cause I asked u, don't mean I ask every nigga the same thing
(5/30/2007 2:36:13 PM): but don't worry, you have already disqualified yourself
WTF, I thought.. I immediately ended the conversation.

TOP OR BOTTOM? What makes one a top or what makes one a bottom? Niggas be on that bullshit. So I accidently hit a couple of tops up and they were all ready to get on their backs.. Oh im verse! Another question, if your having a phone bone with someone… and they CLAIM to be a Top… How is it that your phone boning and they want you to beat it up … Doesn’t it sound like he is a bottom to you?

GAY or STRAIGHT? Ok I had this issue with this fag I met from BGC. He want to be gay in the night and straight by day. I mean how can you let a nigga stick his in your hole and fuck you and then claim straight the next day. I told him just like I told one of my friends… “To thine own self be true” “you do it because you like it” Its nothing wrong with being GAY.
360 what are your thought on all of that?

May 23rd is My Birthday

It all began on this day in 1981 that I would be born to young parents in Chicago. Illinois. My parents didn’t know what they had birthed in front of them. Hey I was born in the inner city of Chicago and faced many hard trials ahead of me. They didn’t know that I was going to be the smart, exciting, thick, good-looking and crazy person that I am today 26 years later. I am so thankful that I was able to see another on the earth. A day above dirt is better than any day below it. Many said I wouldn’t make it, but I’m still here.
I have so much to be thankful and so much to reflect on in the past 26 years. For one I am getting old, I am no longer a quarter of a century old and working my way towards the second quarter. LOL. GOD, had kept me here through many trials and tribulations, car accidents, depression and break ups. He has given me family, friends, baby mammas and baby daddies, health, strength, wisdom and the many more blessings coming forth. LOL…

At first my birthday didn’t mean nothing to me because last sure it was spent making preparations for my grandmother’s funeral. My 25th was sad, very sad. But my friends let me know that it means something to them so it has to mean something to me. Since I got up at 545am this my phone been ringing off the hook, hundreds of text messages, facebook messages and 360 messages all have been coming to my phone. My bosses have not done anything as of yet, but we play games around here when it comes to birthdays… My clients all rushed me with gifts and junk, they know what I like I got a mini grocery store on my desk.
I don’t know what I’m going to do today, Details will be posted on Tommorow blog.