Moving is for the birds

First I want to thank GOD for my my apartment and tho im very grateful i'll have to say that moving aint for me. Next I would like to thank all my readers who sent your congrats! Well I have not been paying attention to blogs this week due to my packing my things and moving which is not an easy task. Im so tired! Cash and My boo have been helping to move some things over in my car but hell it only fits so much. The official move in is tommorow and im looking forward to it. The only thing I dont like about my apt is the bathroom but I have now devised a plan to fix it to my likings! Now that im leaving for good my aunt seems to be a little sad because im leaving but hey she pushed me out. Everyone can look forward to the housewarmings being in August sometime. Im going to have one for Blood Family and another for FAMILY. My mom will probably coordinate the one for the blood family and ChiBlknAsian is going to coordinate the other one. Remember to get gift reciepts. He wants me to register at Target, Walmart, and Pier One which I'll do so by the middle of the month. This brings me to some things I have noticed about my neighbors. They are all family or at least Family friendly. The neighbors across the parking lot have a medium sized Pride flag in the window and the neighbors across the street have a big ass RAINBOW across they're front windows. All I could do was laugh and damn this is going to be a great summer. Im almost sure my next door neighbors are lesbians or switchhitters. LOL... Anytime you like, feel free to stop by the cable is already working and I got couches and chairs for you to sit on.. I have no food yet so bring your own. LOL... Right now Im at work wishing I was at home in my bed cause im whopped!

Update

Startin with Friday being a good day for me I got paid so I knew I would be moving out soon. The one place in Hyde Park I really liked was playing games with me. Here it has been two weeks and no one had called me back telling me if I had the place or not. I have been calling them everyday and still they are giving me No answers. So I said FUCK THEM ill find me a new place and they will refund me my deposit. Saturday I worked and then went out for the evening with Cash and Dekalb. We went up North to kick it and see what the Crowd was up too. I ran into some associates, former pieces, and Chi Blk N Asian. From what I could tell in the car he is a nice guy. Sunday was Pride and I actually had a real good time up there. I didnt see many of my past sexual pieces like I saw last year. It was a great event. The highlight of my day was when I saw these two fags fighting on the CTA. It was hilarious! They beat the shit out of one another and beat the shirts off each other. One of them had his stomach taped up with duct tape. LOL.. OMG... Can you believe that? I was like oh my GOD! If you fat then you fat aint no trying to hide it? Im fat and aint no way im taping shit up. I've been on vacation all week and finally I got a place. Ive been moving my stuff in there slowly and I will fully be in there this weekend. I am so HAPPY! Im happy to be away from my nagging, full of shit ass family. I have never met people who for the hell of it bothers people. How about getting a fucking life and stop bothering me!?

SO HE IS HAVING MY BABY!

My bad peeps I know I have not been keeping the blog updated but Maurice has been hella busy. I've been working three jobs....1 Ft job as a Counselor/Casemanager/social worker...1 pt job as a home based Counselor... and another doing Interior Decorating. I have been very tired and Ill be glad when I go on Vacation next week to chill the fuck 0ut. This was a great weekend. I spent 75% of it with my baby. It is my motto that "If you go looking for something then you will find it." Well thats exactly what my baby did. He decided he wanted to go through my texts to see what I have been saying to people and what they had been saying to me. Walmart2 decided he wanted to text me and tell me I was not going to use him for sex and that he was not my rebound. Im like dawg I dont like you and I aint on that. Luckily im not the cheating type if I would have given him something to see. Friday I went on to my co-worker house to finish prepping her house for painting and getting the last of the furniture out and the carpet up. I so wanted to mess around in her house but we didnt out of respect for her. My baby was like I dont want you to talk to such and such and anymore. I was like fine. So he erased like 30 numbers out my phone. LOL.. Ok since he wanted to play like that I did the same to him. On Saturday I got up and worked from 8 until 5 and then me and Lilbdbrown went out with Cash for his birthday. We met up with one of our Fellow Chicago Bloggers by the name of E at Papadeux. It was a nice restaurant and I could see myself going there again. E was cool and too quiet for me. I was NO WAY will you meet me after almost a year and not say anything. So me being the socialite and the outgoing person I got him to talk. Thanks for the compliment at Dinner! LOL.. Then I went and picked up my baby and the four of us went to Jackson Park. We went to my mom's after I dropped everyone off. All im going to say is between Saturday night and Sunday Morning was a DAMN great time for the both of us. Iwill not get into specifics but it was Mind blowing and back breaking! He almost got me to compromise myself, but I didnt. Sunday was church as usual. I was totally not feeling the guest pastor we had. He str8 blew me. My family really annoys the fuck out of me. From my momma with her psychosis and granny and her boat addiction. They got all these problems and the nerve to want to tell me about my addiction to SEX and MEN. LOL! Then today my mom blows me again by telling me that me and my guy arent going to last a lifetime. I say WHY NOT? Because your not fucking being with a man for the rest of your life. Your going to get married and have some kids. "No Im not" "Yes you are." Whatever LADY! So finally when she was done arguing she said well I guess "THOSE KINDS OF RELATIONSHIPS" can have children too. LOL, I replied Im workin on getting him pregnant now! She got mad and got off the phone. SHE KNOWS I AM HER CHILD so I dont know why she goes there with me. I can't wait til he gives BIRTH!

Creator of our own Insecurities

This is going to be a day of questions and free lanced thoughts from me. On yesterday morning my day started out with me cursing one of my acqaintances out. He has to be the stupidess fags in Chicago. I cursed his ass out for like 30 minutes because he acts as if he is slow or just dont want to understand what the fuck your saying to him. Then all he did was sit and hold the phone which made me even madder. He is one of those people that call and ask you for advice and then don’t want to hear what you have to say. Why even ask me? Then he told me that they broke up and now they back together. He constantly jumps back and forth with this guy. I asked why do you keep doing this? "I love him," I told him he was stupid and he didnt love him nor did the boy love him... then told him he is nice looking, slim, and can do a whole lot better than that. He can have most of the people he wants..I said stupid muthafucker how in the hell can you say you love someone and you dont know what love is. With that I hung up the phone cause I was tired of wasting my breath. He has worn all his friends out talking about this guy. The moral of the story is "if it looks like a duck, quacks like a duck, walks like a duck, swims like a duck, then it is a duck! With that he is mad at me and I don’t care. Now on to more important issues.. I looked at 2 apartments yesterday. I liked both of them. One was a bit small and the other was kind of hood. But I could do either of them. Got appointments to look at 5 more this week and then im going to make a decision on Monday. Last night I asked my aunt could my guy come over. Surprisingly she said yeah. I felt stupid being a grown ass man and having to ask can I have company. The only stipulation is that he could not sleep in the bed with me and guess what she did? She got up in the middle of the night like a fucking no life having stalker and made sure we were not sleeping in the same bed. I’m like "will you take your ass to bed and stop walking around waking me up." It is my belief that we are the creators of our own insecurities. I have found myself thinking things in my head that probably don’t happen and are not happening. But once I believe it, it’s not changing my mind. An acquaintance of mine was telling me he had a dream that his guy was cheating and that he did not care about him. It turned to the point where he had it in his mind and began to feel insecure about his guy. He began to ask him if there was someone else and question after question. But nothing was going on. Often I think that is the reason why people cheat is because they think in their heads that their significant others are messing with someone else so they have to match that so they run right out and get them someone else. Other things that play into it is if they are not satisfying you. Two people need to be sexually compatible and both need to want to have sex if the other wants to do it. No sense in a very sexual person dating a person who doesnt care to have sex often because it will lead to people running out to meet someone else to make up the difference. If you have ever cheated what made you do it? I have never cheated but the thought has crossed my mind.

Im back in Business

Well its been a long two weeks since I wrote in here and so much that I will leave out simply because I aint gone remember what all went down since then. Im feeling a lot better than I was feeling. I did not take the death of my grandma well(not that I should). My baby was very supportive to me the whole time. From the day I went on beureavement leave he was right there by my side every day and every night. Thats the longest time we have ever spent with one another at a time. I got to know him more personally and intimately. Check this out.. he wants me to become a Versetop! I have not let anyone hit in years. It will probably kill me.. what should I do? It all ended on one sunday morning when my faggot ass cousin saw him leaving my house and called my aunt talking shit about him being there. So now he is not allowed to come back to my house. FINE! I hope that she did not think that would stop me from seeing him. I go see about everyday or ill go and get him and we will go out or go to my moms house. I dont know what my families whole issue is about me doing what I want to do. I did not offend anyone. I dont ask anyone for anything. I dont impose my lifestyle on them. Being a Bi/homosexual whatever I am,LOL, I have done a lot more than all of the "straight" men in my family. I have never been to jail, been in any kind of trouble, and I dont live off of no one. Better yet I went to college and got a degree, a ft and pt job, a new car, take care of me, and live so that I am happy. Whats the harm in that? Some people will never get it. Its because of shit like this that families grow apart. They surely are making me not like them and cant wait to get away from them. My apartment search has been sucessful and I have found some places but my family does not want me to live there and the S.O. has a problem with it. Im looking are we going to be living together or what. As far as I was concerned he would come and visit not be a live in; I guess he has a different agenda. Question: Do you think lovers should co-habitat? Yesterday, I was mowing the lawn at the house and my faggot ass cousin comes over and tries to annoy me by sitting and watching me. Of course I dont say a word to him cause I dont like him. Dolton was over so he walks over to her and says to her, "You need to hurry up and marry him to "straighten" him out." Im like what the fuck nigga?! What type of hating, cockblocking, tea spilling shit is that? I told her she should have said to him when he stops being a fag. He think no one knows his tea but I do. All my friends think he is gay. He is just hating on me cause he cant be himself. He thinks just because he lives with a girl and has children he is not gay. Its plenty of gay me that has children and a girl. He hides it when he beats them and tries to hide it. What you think about this shit? I expect some feedback!

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